This is me going to be explaining everything that happened to me in detail about the subject mentioned above. It’s just me ranting and letting it all out so just ignore this you don’t have to read it. But If you wanna help hear me out. Warning it may get p graphic.
Ok so. My rapist is a family member of mine. A sibling. He’s been making me do sexual acts since I was 5 (+ some other people.). At first he was just molesting me. Then he started raping me. He did it with himself then painful objects around the house. Hell he did it in front of my parents and they never noticed. He forced me to suck him off and other disgusting things like that. It was happening for years. As I grew up I started to be able to defend myself, but he didn’t stop trying. Trying to manipulate me and touch me in any way he could.
I was so disgusted and ashamed. I never wanted to tell anyone about it. My parents found out this year. Because a psychiatrist manipulated me to tell her about it and since I was 17 (it didn’t matter I’d be an adult in 2 months to her) she reported it to the police. She wrote them 1 single sentence and put me in danger. The police just came to our front door and gave them a piece of paper requesting my presence with my mom. With that one sentence abt it. He could’ve hurt me. What if my parents weren’t home? What if they didn’t believe me? I had to explain to them suddenly all the horrible things that have been happening to me when I’ve never properly talked about it to anyone. Can you imagine how scary and uncomfortable and how horrible that situation was for me?
Of course that thing denied everything and we went to the police. They did nothing. Then social services got involved. They did nothing. Okay. My mom and other family members say they’ll figure it out. I’m still stuck here. My parent’s won’t kick him out and expect me to keep living here and be patient because he’s “their son.”. They even said if it was anyone else they’d kill him. Like. Thanks. And now I’m here still. Stuck in this god damn house. With that god damn thing right next door. The walls are thin too so I can actually hear his disgusting voice right now laughing and talking to his friends. While I here suffer and cry and deal with all the shit I had to and still have to go through. I’m tired. I wish I didn’t want to live so badly so I could just end it all. I can’t do that though. I want to live. I want to be happy and comfortable and safe.
This isn’t the whole story but the basic important things are here. Nobody can help me. Except you. If you have just 3 dollars to spare you can buy me 1 ko-fi. ( https://www.ko-fi.com/cutiepatoodieart ). How it works is you buy me a ko-fi which is 3 dollars (you can buy more if you want) and I get those 3 dollars. If all of my followers gave me just 1 dollar I’d be able to move out and live well. So I’m begging you again to help me. Because I just can’t do it anymore. But I realize this is a lot to ask and you don’t have any obligation to do so. But if you are in a position to help someone please do. There are so many other people who need help. Give to charities,help people you know,etc. Just please be kind. I wish I didn’t have to ask for money like this. I’d rather work for it but I’m not able to right now because of my disability and illnesses. I don’t know if anyone even read this but if you did thank you for listening to me. I never talked about it like this. I just have to let it all out and sadly ask for help because my own family doesn’t want to even though they easily can.
my dad committed suicide and I will soon have no reliable finances ori place to be
I am a mentally Ill and disabled (cerebral palsy, autism) 18 year old trans women. On October 30th, i lost my beloved father to suicide. I lived with him to escape my mentally, physically, and sexually abusive mother. Without my father around, I have very limited options now as far as housing, finances, and medication availability. I have no car or drivers license and my bank account and PayPal balances are 0. I have nothing. On October 30th I lost everything. My father was all I had. Please try to donate anything you can so I can afford to live. My relatives can help somewhat but I will still be in dire need.
I’m going to be honest, I’m not happy to have to make this plea for help but currently, I find myself with no choice.
Recently, I got into an accident that, thankfully, was a minor one that I got out of with nothing more than a fracture in my Achilles and a mild concussion. Unfortunately, the US Healthcare system is a piece of shit and my bill is still stupid high.
I currently work as a paid intern and tutor on the side. However, the majority of my income goes towards rent and other necessities like food and meds. The other bit I have left goes to paying for classes I’m paying for a my local college to fill pre-requisites. I am looking to transfer this year to a college with a good Computer Science program but with college applications soon and fees to pay for those, I can’t afford to pay my bill.
So, I have decided to reach out to you all and offer what I can in return for some help. Rather than opening commissions which I wouldn’t be able to do due to a lack of motivation and writer’s block that has plagued me for months, I am offering my beta-reading services. Listed below are the prices.
i need help paying off my credit card & getting my laptop fixed before i fall into worse debt than i already am
hey guys. i know this isnt the first time ive had to ask for help but im in a really bad situation money-wise right now
for those of you who dont know me, im ignis, im 21, trans masc, he/they pronouns. the situation is that basically
i had to move back to california from washington in august because my grandpa kicked me out for, basically, being Too Depressed, and i had to move back in with my family down south who have a history of heavily emotionally abusing me. and while they’re a lot nicer and kinder to me now, i’m still in the closet with them and if i ever did come out to them, i’d get kicked out again.
the problem here is that when my grandpa kicked me out, i had very little to no time to pay off my current balance on my credit card, because i had to leave my job asap and my paychecks were already spent paying for the cost of having to move states with my cat in the first place. i had to ask for help paying off my credit card back then too, but as i was expected to basically pay for the trip myself, that’s what that money went to.
unfortunately i still haven’t been able to find a stable job since then, so most of my time is spent cleaning the house i live in now in exchange for… well, being allowed to live here. and my credit has stacked up now where if i don’t start paying it off soon, i’m going to be in serious trouble.
the thing is, my laptop just took a shit today. it’s already been giving me trouble for a long time, hence why i stopped being so active on this blog and making content, since my laptop just couldn’t handle it anymore. and while i can get it fixed, that’s going to cost me about ~$150 i don’t have, and it’ll put me in further debt with my family, on top of the ~$450 in debt i am on my credit card.
i really don’t want to let this get any worse than it already is, so i’m asking for help. this isn’t a life or death situation, but i do depend on my laptop for basically any kind of entertainment and enjoyment i get, and i just can’t afford to let my credit any worse than it is. i would really appreciate any help any of you would like to give. unfortunately i can’t promise anything in return for donations because, like i said, my laptop is busted and needs to be fixed, and honestly i’m so depressed and have so few spoons because of my situation that i can’t promise i can get anything done anyway.
my ko-fi is https://ko-fi.com/A62147F, and alternatively if you’d like to send money as friends & family directly thru paypal, you can do that at https://www.paypal.me/jeongguk. any amount helps, but please don’t feel obligated to donate or anything. i’m sorry i let it come to this. but thank you. really. 💕
Photographer Mattias Klum from National Geographic gets close and personal with a lion.
“and all of a sudden you feel very small” damn right
IT JUST WANTS TO BE LOVED AND SAVED
please, if you are able, do what you can for the asiatic lion. donate, get involved, spread information. there are only about 300 left in the world, and they all live in Gir Forest National Park in India.
the african lion is also estimated to be extinct by 2050 due to habitat loss, sport hunting, and loss of their prey base to the bushmeat trade. these beautiful creatures could be extinct in our lifetime. the next generation may not ever have the chance to see these creatures, there will be no more cute lion vines, there will be no more documentaries, there will be no more zoos or sanctuaries containing lions. there will be no more lions.
if you have any love for nature, any love for animals, any love for life, and if you care at all about the permanent loss of a species, especially one so beautiful and iconic, if you care and if you are able, please donate to help save lions.
Not relevant to my blog, but my inner nature lover is calling
Saw someone once posted a review on a book that said lions dont live in India; sad that some people dont even know they exist.
People like to think that those who participate in the bush meat trade do so for no good reason. But when you can make enough money to feed your whole family for the next few months instead of slowly starving, preserving a species doesn’t even rank on your list of concerns. Yes not all do it for these reasons, but those who do shouldn’t have to, and the only reason why the must is because they do not have any means of providing for themselves and family otherwise. If they weren’t living in poverty, this wouldn’t be an issue. Their plight is the result of corporate imperialism. Corporations don’t care about people, if they see a valuable resource they will take it through whatever means necessary. Corporations exploit these countries because they know there will be no repercussions, because consciously or not, we’ve elevated them to have more rights than us.
I’m writing two term papers in english this semester and therfor I’m looking for native english speakers* that would offer to correct my term papers (I’m paying 1,50€ per corrected page). more info is under the cut.
*one for each term paper, you can also correct both if you like.
I was on my way home from work and I was robbed and he took $450 from me (I know I’m fucking stupid for carrying that on me but I had just cashed my check that day) and this really fucking sucks because I was going to use that money to get medication and treatment for my dog that has been having seizures.
I already have ptsd from being fucking homeless and now this. I’m genuinely scared to go outside. If anyone can send me anything please I would appreciate or at least share this.
I don’t speak to my mom I have no family to help me and this is a lot to deal with for a 22 year old
life is not a song 